Friday, February 10, 2006
yest had another quarrel.. sianx.. i noe shld not put my probs here..but cant take it man.. anyway put pw tingy le..yupx..so still alright ba..
haix..i got hurt again.. so did he.. i feel bad abt sth..but i cant help it.. how come i feel like its gonna end..? i've been feelin dis 4 a long long time? mayb he too but he dun wan 2 say.. haix.. is it reali time to let go..? sigh... last nite i nearly gave up when he said those words.. i feel i onli give him pain.. since like tt..i rather he find some1 he can willing change his attitude in studies.. im onli afraid he wld give up b4 he find her.. i reali hate 2 b e 1 hu hurt him.. he once said, "if i reali let go, den im reali selfish" cos i said tt i give him pain y not i dun b selfish n let him go.. i noe he waited veri long 4 mi le.. but i juz cant get out.. hu will help mi?! haix..but onli i can help myself
exams comin le..yet dis few days im so moody..how 2 pass?!?!? haix.. it ink dis sem i sure do worse den last sem..den im dead lo..i tot dad i wun let it affect my studies.. haix.. argh.! im gg crazy..wat e hell m i suppose 2 do?! hu can tell mi?! if dis rs dun work.. i wun let myself fall in love again.. i'll conc on myself..!!
i dun noe if im livin my life 2 e fullest.. i feel like im stuck somewhere, unable to move on.. wat shld i do? im stuck cos of my fear of parents ba.. i wonder if i can fulfil my yr's relevations(wateva e spellin..haha) sigh.. i doubt i can ba..
tml got interview 4 a job..hope it goes well.. but i noe there sure is gonna have another quarrel comin.. haix.. i wonder when will b reali e last.....
thinking of you @ 11:55 AM